its the end of everything

just talk things out with felicia and ford . and yeah , finally . everything its gonna put to an end . yeah , quarrel with them . and ya , dont feel that good . dont even have someone to talk to now . or someone to advise me now . all i can do now is to shagg or cry . i have enough already . who else care ? nahhs , no one man . in that group . its like whether i with them or not . its still the same . they can happily go enjoy and play . but what about me ? stop asking me to think of how you all feels alright ? how you all feels too ? can't you all just put yourself in my shoes ? after i mia , who ask me out ? even if got , how many times only ? i really think i've enough , i wanna clean break with you all . every single one of you . after talking things out . its really hurts me , the memories , the pictures . those post . its really make me feel like crying . somehow , i even feel like puting an end to my life . its like i've completely lose another part of my life . life is just like a game . i cant do anything . i can hold on to the happiness that i want . but then . sadness do keep come upon it . my heart is numb , my body is numb , every parts of me is numb , i cant really feel the pain anymore . and its like i've start to changed to be another person . people ask . where's the weiwei i knew ? where is the cheerful weiwei gone to ? well . i can say , its all gone . i've changed , so have you guys . you all made me to change to who i'm now . not me . i do really still care almost every single one of you all . especially felicia , drea , sotplug , vance , xab . but then , it seems like . i must learn to let go of it now . after talking to felicia and ford . i really totally break down , what's the point for me to voice things out when i know it isnt gonna happen or turn back to the way it was ? even if i did really voice it out . can it turn to the time when i just knew you all ? those laughter and joy ? no . the answer is no . it will still be the same . who else treat me important in the group ? none (: and that's what i see . so yeah , after new year eve celebration , i will make a clean break . and i will delete all contacts . and everything . i will start a new fresh , a new year . a new group of friends ? and a new job . a new me too . i will try hard to even give up everything . even if it really make me break down again to forget you guys . i still will try hard on it . cause i dont want to be so miserable again . i dont want to always be in sadness . i wanna stay happy too . like what you guys are doing now . so yeah , that's my final decision . take care everyone . last day we meet will be on thursday , new year eve (: make this day the last day , to enjoy . and a happy last memory for me . thanks .

Disappointment

alright , i just came back to blog as i just feel so fcuk up . reach home just now . suppose to be home earlier , like about 7 plus ? cause of a fcuking dog . which make me reach home late . argh fcuk . i would like to tell a story out to everyone . and see whether what do you guys think alright ? human A is a long friend of mine . and she's very close to me . human B is a friend of mine which i knew a month plus ago .

once human B step in my life , everything change , all my closest one , start to drift from me . i dont know why either . and now . human B and human A look damn close . then today , i ask human A whether can go her house , then at first she say ok . then next min , she told me say her mum will come back home anytime , so i didnt go . then human B say he will stay at era with me . cause i ask him if not we stay at era la . then he say ok . after that , when i was lying in the pantry , human B took human A bag , and i find it weird already , cause human B pangseh me once before . then i ask him , you going human A house of stay at era . then human B told me say he going human A house and sleep . so i was like what the fcuk . you at first tell me say you wanna stay at era . and now ? and i was so pissed that i disown him and ask him to fcuk off . seriously . i dont need this kind of friends la . so you can jolly well fcuk off man . i'm not short of friends (: or a son , or whatever shyts ! and i just cab back and send a sms to human A to tell her to pass the msg to human B . and i also told human A that i dont know what she wants . she at first say that her house cant go . and complain to me about human B so many stuff . and end up lehs ? i dont know la . just fcuk it man . seriously . i can say is that , you are also drifting off away from me soon . you just dont get what i mean . and what i told you before . anyway , human A = adeline , and human B = beebee .

to adeline : this is the last post i shall write to you . whether you got read it or not . i dont give a damn now . and from today on , you dont have to complain to me what beebee done wrong . since he's much more important than me right now . and dont tell me no . cause after i send the last sms to you . you didnt even reply . cause you dont know what you wanna say right ? you are mute right ? cause what i say , is the truth . and it seems like he have taken over my place . so what's the point of us being so close now ? he's the one who always meet you . go out with you . ask him to be your sh lo (: simple . i dont care you see this , you wanna cry or what , cause my heart is numb already . put yourself in my shoe lahs , and you will know how i feel now . seriously . you changed alot . after i brought him down here . and i fcuking regret bringing him down to you guys . and i can tell you . now in this post . or in your face . dont ever ask him to come down era anymore . if you wanna come , dont bring him over . cause i dont wanna see his fcuking face there anymore . the choice is yours , either you have him , if not me (: simple . cause i know your answer will be him (: so good bye ! thanks for the past happiness you have given , and the huge disappointment too :D and ya , think whether you wanna continue the sh we are anot . think carefully before you made any choices . no = no more sh , no more friends . yes = no more beebee , but still continue sh , but the feeling will be different (:

to beebee : ehs , i now fcuking tell you straight in your face lahs hors . you are fcuking disown man ! i dont need a son like you lahs hors . you can fcuking fcuk off from my life man . i dont care you wanna cry or emo or cut yourself . go ahead man . fcuking regret knowing you . and bring you down to know so many people la hors . ehs , you fcuking fcuk off from era also lahs , i will tell everyone in era about it man . you are such a . . . . asshole man . just jolly well fcuk off from my sight man . cause the more i see you , the more i hate you man . you make me feel so disgust ! you are worst than your brother . and i dont know whether you did steal my phone anot la hors . alot of people tell me so la . if i know its you who steal my stuff . i make sure i give you hell man . not happy with me , call people down then . i fcuking hate you to the core man , and dont ever call me mummy again lahs . cause its so disgraceful to have a son like you . do whatever you want , smoke , scold vulgarities or what , go ahead lahs , just faster go and die better (: bye asshole !

sians , not feeling so well too ):

currently now at era . well . was like so bored la . the group is not here . only mark , JJ are here . hmm . somehow , i do miss back that group now . maybe cause this group is not here ? to make me laughs bahs . hahs ! i keep having random mood this few days . dont feel like sms-ing nor answer calls . argh ! just talk to people on msn or facebook . line gonna cut off either today or later on bahs . cause i havent return the bill for last month x.x so anything sms me . getting sick and tired of all this now . might go find a job next month , then after that , wont meet anyone anymore ? or just through sms only . just feeling so so so terribly down . sigh . anyone free , add me on msn and chat with me ehs ! angelngweiqin@hotmail.com . sign off now . lazy to post too . waiting for brandon to come back on jan 1st (: faster come back you this joker !

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE (:

hoho , merry christmas everyone . i'm back to blog ! well . this year christmas sucks man ! argh . didnt have place to go . and era was close . actually got place go . but is i dont wanna go . cause there only 4 people i talk to . so dont wish to go over . hmm , sorry ehs . this few days , was either at era or home , ton with adeline sweetheart on the 23 . rolfs . love die you sh (: even thought this year christmas sucks , i bet new year will be fun . hope so la . hmm . tomorrow going boat quay ): aww . now they tell me should be . rolfs . means not confirm yet now . so be it . hahs ! i dont know what to post already . somehow feel like neglecting my blog . so bye peeps !
wish you all enjoy a very enjoyable christmas (: